Remember, at school......those girls who are most popular, most pretty & most slender (and most probably been rode alot), yeah I remember them. In drama for example, lead role goes to who? you guessed it those girls when clearly I could of done a better job, but unfortunately I was not slender, or popular I did have a pretty face though and massive boobs (obviously) and so I did not get that part. Or maybe you remember on the bus trip to or from school those girls who could get the whole bus started on calling you fat names, some were quite clever but all were cruel.....
Don't me wrong this isn't blogging of the sad and emo (well kind of emo as in there may be some emotions in it) type, but I'm sure those of us that were fat (I won't be sugar coating anything my darlings) had this experince or similar or worst. Really, I'm just establishing a background (1 of many) of sorts.
Now, I'm not sure if this is in everyone's case but certainly in mine, I always thought (swore) to myself that when I was as slender as those girls I would never be as cruel or nasty to other's who were fat. I would remain that humbleness, that kindness, that support that came from being constantly put down or dissed as we called it back then, actually I'm sure there was 'shame' and 'Oo chop' in there to somewhere...sorry off topic a bit but you know I thought when I get fit, I won't turn into a snob, I won't think I'm better then those who are bigger, be rude etc etc...............well I tell you what; I was fat, now not so much, and it is the biggest struggle to not be rude, or think I'm better then other's and it all comes down to your confidence level.
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